26. 5 things within touching distance right now.

Pen, paper, hole puncher, computer mouse, and a stapler.

27. Name and shame - someone’s status/someone in general on Facebook that makes you cringe.

Rather not name anyone.

That girl whose status is always like “pissed off. don’t call/text. phone with the hubby”

It’s legit the same status every single night…

28. An embarrassingly/socially awkward situation you’ve found yourself in.

You walk into the lunchroom and forget who has the same lunch as you that day. You end up aimlessly walking around and finding the first group of people that you know. Then you’re just sitting there and looking around trying to find friends that you can actually talk to instead of awkwardly just sitting there and watching everyone else talk.

Find myself in that situation about 4/5 times out of the week.

29. Something you’re not proud of.

My grades. (all the freaking time.)

30. The last argument you had.

I can’t even remember. I just argue with my parents over stupid things.

The last argument I can recall is with my mom when I was trying to go hang out with my friend down the street. She was asking me why I wanted to hang out and I was just getting annoyed already so an argument arose.

25. Someone you’d like to be for a day and why.

No one in specific, but I’d like to be a boy for a day. There’s always the controversy between who has it harder, boys or girls? Most guys even agree that girls have it worse, but there are experiences that only boys can have and girls can’t. I just think it’d be interesting to be a boy for a day because you get to see a whole other view and have a different mind.

OR

Be Taylor Lautner’s girlfriend for a day. Hell yeah. YAK.

20. Your best sexual experience/ your sex life or lack thereof.

I don’t have a sex life and I don’t care. I’m 16 and I’m happy to say I’m a virgin.

21. Press ctrl and v and post.

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22. Post a bit of your last IM conversation.

This is my conversation with @abcdemi.

23. 5 things you want to change.

1. ‘90 TV Shows - The younger generation are becoming corrupt and it’s unacceptable. It’s actually ridiculous. Why are all the shows now about fame and all the shows back then were about family and friendship? Bring it back, now.
2. Minds - Think about your actions and how it affects other people. One small action can make a huge problem. Just use your mind a little, ok?
3. My capability in school - Why can’t I just get freaking good grades? Everyday I dread school and I honestly hate school. I can’t stand it; everyday I want to cry being in that dreadful place.
4. My family time - I’ll be honest, too much family time makes me not like my family. I love my family, but my constant bitching about my family is caused because I’m around them too much so it becomes hard for me to appreciate the moments we have together. They don’t let me live my life, then what’s the point of being apart of this family. Where’s the freedom?
5. Time - There needs to be more hours in a day or more minutes in an hour. There is never enough time.

24. 5 turn- ons and 5 turn- offs.

Turn- ons: Guys that smell good, can have deep conversations, sweet talk, have a cute smile, and give tight hugs.

Turn- offs: Guys that have bad hygiene, can’t keep their mouth shut, act like they dgaf, have a type of girl, and just wanna get in a girl’s pants. GTFO, whores.

14. Something disgusting you do.

I shower naked…

I put sugar in my milk and I drink warm milk. -shrug- A lot of people think it’s straight up nasty.

15. Lyrics that apply to your current sitatuation/mood.

Just one of dem days, that a girl goes through
When I’m angry inside, don’t want to take it out on to you
Just one of dem days, don’t take it personal
I just wanna be all alone, and you think I treat you wrong

— Don’t Take It Personal by Monica

16. A drunken story.

17. Something you regret.

I regret not putting forth my best in freshman year. I picked up bad studying habits and gave up easily. Look where I am now, I suck at school even when I do try. I could’ve been a better person compared to who I am now. This person that I am, I don’t like me very much. Sure I have personality, but what good will that do if I don’t have a brain to go with it.

18. To do list.

• Christmas shopping tomorrow or wednesday after track.
• Pack for Florida
• Read my outside reading book for English
• 2011 — Get driving hours, if my dad let’s me.. -.-
• Friday Adventures with my Trackies
• Driving school in February
• Apply for jobs
• Tears, sweat, and school.

13. Name one person off tumblr you’d throw off a cliff, one you’d marry, and one you’d shag.

I’d throw @choreocookiesz off a cliff, marry @becauseimjay, and shag @shammylee.

@choreocookiesz is hella annoying with his posts and saying “I don’t give a shit” but his posts that have meaning, I like those rare few.

@becauseimjay is dope.

@shammylee has a banging body. Holy f**k’n shiet, man. <3

12. Something you’re currently worrying about.

My grades… All I can think about is school and how even though I actually try, I can’t get the grades that I want. There’s always that one thing that screws me over. I’m satisfied with a B… but I can’t even achieve that. This school year, I’ll be crying more about my grades than anything else. I’m going insane because of them. Never will I be satisfied.

11. Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for 10 years or someone you hate for a month? Keep in mind you gotta survive. Discuss.

I’d rather be stranded on a desert island with someone I hate for a month. I believe that within time, we won’t hate each other because it’s all about the survival. We will both have techniques and knowledge that the other doesn’t contain. Put them together then we are sure to survive. It’s easier to get to know each other if it’s just the two of us. Hating someone is a lot of work, but once you get around all the hatred, more than likely, you’ll end up being good friends with the person. Therefore, I’ll gain a new friend, lose an enemy, and still be alive.

10. One thing you’ve lied about.

I’ve lied plenty of times about doing my homework but I can never lie about who I hang out with or where I am. Except this one time. I lied about who I was going to Boston with and I was caught. [Lol, it was actually exactly last year. Wow.]

I went on a date with my ex-boyfriend in Boston and I told my friends that I was going to the movies with two of my friends. What ended up happening was that I went to Boston, met up with him and we went to the movies. I got a call from my friend and she told me that my mom called her mom. I was in deep shit and started to panic. I called up my other friend and asked her what she was doing and to see if she could help me. She offered to call her mom to back me up, I refused. Me and at the time, my boyfriend, went to the train station and said goodbye. He kept reassuring me. Once I was in Braintree, my heart started to pound. My mom was waiting for me. I got in the car, she started the questions saying how she called my friend’s mom and everything. I said I was with my other friend who was there. I just made up a whole story. I got home, my dad started lecturing me saying how I shouldn’t lie. My mom called my other friend’s mom and asked her where my friend is. I called up my friend and she told me that she didn’t say anything to her mom. Her mom saved my ass because she knows how my parents are. They always have my back when I’m in deep shit cause of my stupid lies. <3

9. Something that makes you sad when you think about it.

Talk to me and once I start talking about my problems, you’ll see the tears swell in my eyes. The only thing that I don’t cry about now is having someone to hold. Sure I want someone to hold hands with but it doesn’t cause me pain compared to when I think about school and my mistakes. When I start to go off about my failures, that’s what gets me going. Sad is an understatement. I get devastated. I’m causing more problems for myself by pushing other’s away or if I’m letting my mouth run. I can’t control myself, I can’t tell myself what to do because to decipher what’s right from wrong even seems like a lot of work.

I can’t keep up and other’s are starting to notice. School, family, failure, distance, pain, and sickness. Whenever I think I’m recovering, it’s all a lie and only an illusion.

Can you not feel my pain when you read my words? I make myself sad by thinking about everything.