Dear Nicole,

Your heart is as big as yourself. You are beautiful from the inside out. Your beauty shines right through you. Your smile is worth a thousand words and when you laugh it rings a sound of joy. Keep that smile on your face because you deserve every happy moment. The way that you care about others is a bit overwhelming but it’s because you have a big heart. You take care of your friends and your family. The way you love each one, it’s no wonder you have so many trustworthy friends. Love yourself because if you don’t, you can’t expect anyone to love you for who you truly are.

Stay happy, stay positive. You have a beautiful heart.

With love, Me.

I don’t want to be jealous of every single girl friend that you have. Every single girl that you might become closer to and get to know her better. It’s worse because it’s not like you’re my boyfriend but you are well enough my very best guy friend. I can’t help it because I just fear that one day, I will lose you. You wonder why I act protective, well it’s because I mother pretty much everyone. But I feel like your life is in my hands and that I personally need to raise you. I feel like you are my full responsibility. I will let go one day when I think you’re ready, but when that day comes I might just cry.

I have no idea how *I* would be able to be pregnant because I’ve only had one kiss. LOL. So it’s really that impossible for me. V for Virgin! YEE!

All my friends that I’m becoming close to. This little circle that has been formed. I’m having fun. My humor is understood. I can transition from a normal conversation to a random as hell conversation. It’s all good.

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Many times, I’ve wanted to just give up on life. This specific moment though that tore me apart and made me break down and cry. There are times when I cry which is just tears rolling down my face. Then there are rare occassions when I cry so hard that I hyperventilate. When that happens, then you know it’s serious business.

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There is no reason to end my life. I wish to live as old enough to see my grandchildren.

Crash - One Call

Never Fallin - Roscoe Umali

Never Change - J. Han ft. Sam Ock

Smile - Charlie Chapin (Glee Version)

Life is tough but don’t give up. God will guide you. God is number one. When you are lost, God will show you the way. Look around, you aren’t alone. You don’t have to go through anything alone. Friends and family will help you through it. When in doubt, smile.

Listen to each song. Listen to the lyrics. That’s where the meaning is.

I wish I worked harder the beginning of my high school career. I wish so much that I didn’t screw it up. I’ll make up for it. I’ll do my best to make up for it. I promise.

I try to forget about my regrets. Therefore, I live regret free. I will not live my life with a lie. I will not live my life under a shadow. I will be in the sun and be happy. No regrets.

 Do you really think a stupid fight will stop me from helping my friend? That’s stupid. I will love my friends no matter what. There’s not enough room in this world for hate. If my friend needs me, I will be there in a heart beat. Put away our differences and be there for him/her.

No matter what, I’ll be there for my friends. Call my name, I’ll be there. <3